Thursday, October 19, 2006
wad can i sae bout my life???its sux...actually im quite okie...but the more i feel okie, the more the past cum abck to me...fcuk siah...y does dis happen to me dis yr???y am i bcumin more emo...dere are pple whom wan me to tell them...told sum of them...cos i wan to see whom i can trust most...well saw sum potential of my true frens...reali2 goin to try my bez to feel hapie...but its juz dat i dun wish to hav frens...i mean i dunnoe y does frens juz disappear wen u nid a shoulder to cry on???den wen i write sum stupid msn nick den u b askin wad happen...dats is wad i meant by u act like u care...i eman frens shld noe wen i hav prob....i came into class and i wan giving everione cold shoulder tau...tapi raudah kalau kau terasa sowrie...i was giving everione cold shoulder...nt juz u...deres part in me saeing more bad points bout frens den gud pints...each and everione was observe carefully by my heart...well nt to sae bad arhx...iwont backstab my frens...i kip to myself...i dun tell pple bout ure bad points...i rather tell u den other pple...so u can see frm urself...u understand wad im tryin to sae rite???well im damn depress...to tell u all the truth, i gt no purpose in life rite nw..no1 i can reali relate my prob to...xcept for sum...well...gt sum whom waah gud in realigious stuff but at ure back dey talk bout old tings...like wad do malay pple kol "UNGKIT"...yeah dats the werd...its my fcukin choice wad to do..and it happen quite old...dere was no conflict between us...but y muz u start...ure the biggest firestarter...nt me u motherfcuker...u tryin to b leader nt other pple...y u tryin to back stab me wen i help u alot...ure gud saeing but Islam giving lecture...but if u giv lecture and u never see u make pple mad wads the use???so wad if i didnt fast???i pae back wad...but do u noe u backstab me u tink u still fast???tink bout it larh...ikut sedap mulut jek...knn...sumtymes u make me mad...but ure the king of all the bad tok...mengate pandai...tapi padahal2...y u so like dat???knn...feel like punching ure freaking face....den gt sum juz see me like dunnoe siah...knn...wad u tryin to show???dat im nt ure fren or sumtin...i duncare bout frens olreadi...i care bout the one i treasure most...u tink i never go skwel bcos i wake up late or wadsoever, but actually i was tryin to get awae frm all of u...its like u make use of frens...so wad if we are brothers...we brothers or so called "classmates" help in each other wen in time of nid...but instead u back stab me...u tink im so stupid arhx???i noe wad u do behind pple back...i mastered ure tactics...knn...damn pissed wid u siah...tapi luckily i still take u as fren...if nt u goi hme wid a blue black on ure face...and a broken arm...knn...lng tyme never hit anione u noe...i wan to jump down frm a building siah...i rather die sia...and im nt jokin bout it...dis aint werds...i will do it...and if i were to die, or b in ICU, i dunwan to see u all on my funeral...bloody pple...knn...makin me mad everidae siah...Raudah u noe y i giv u the biggest coldest shoulder ever,cos we use to b sister and brother hood...but now like u dissapearing...nehmind...i dun care bout it...den wen u saw my nick den u thought it was u...wad the heck...y does everityme i gt prob y u tink its u???bcos u make me mad sumtymes???i never told u cos i noe u can b trusted...now so sowrie...gt to check out if u are reali2 am...and u noe ure fren Nuraimi,i dunnoe wad i did to her dat she giv me the cold shoulder...well i duncare...mayb i like her...yeah i like her...but now the feelin has fade awae...dun care bout anitin rite nw...i noe sum of u will b pissed wid wad i sae...u will tok behind my back...well everitin is no use rite nw...i dun feel ani ting...u may tok behind my back...but remeber GOD noe wad u did...i will never forgive ani1 whom try to backstab me...dis is all small kid stuff alrh...y does pple have to big mouth...u may sae dat ure nt but u are...u juz didnt notice...wait till i sae it...den u b tinkin am i???lazy to write siah rite nw...continue lata...
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